Letter to Mom:
First of all setting spiritual goals for mission in my opinion doesn't work. If I set a goal for how many people I want to baptize then I will undoubtedly start baptizing people who are not ready and become motivated by statistics. I personally will never baptized a person without a proper testimony or who is not ready to be active in the church. Also the areas are so diverse here that you can never tell what you can consistently do. Some areas rarely baptize at all and some areas you baptize 5 every transfer. The entirety of mission is centered on spiritual growth. I want to become more humble but that's not a goal that I can set and measure and achieve. It's just a thing I can work on. Also I told you I want to always stay young and motivated on mission which is coming along really well. Also learning Xhosa would be so sick. I'm actually learning a lot and it's something I think is definitely attainable. I don't even care about speaking Xhosa but I just want to experience the mental shift that happens when you learn to speak another language.
Yeah I remember Elder Cornish's talk. I liked it a lot. I talked with Dad about this too but I really like the theme about striving for exact obedience. Also the thing about missionary work being about the missionary is very interesting as well. I have never really looked at it in quite that way.
Today we went to a game reserve. I really wanted to see a Rhino but I was disappointed :( We did see lots of Zebras and Giraffes and stuff which was cool. It cost 120 Rand which is about 9 dollars. I don't think we're going to go to the expensive one anymore so that's good.
The best thing that happened last week was that they raised MSF. Before we were getting _ Rand every 2 weeks. Now we are getting _ Rand every 2 weeks which is a big difference. I feel so free. Now I'm eating lots of different fruit and veg and I'm starting to cook different things. I definitely have enough money now so I won't be needing you to help me out anymore.
We baptized that girl Y on Saturday. It was a very spiritual experience. I think I told you that she is terrified of water and so she was very nervous to go in. When she did get in the water the spirit was so strong there because she was showing so much faith to overcome her fear. She had literally been shaking about it every time we talked about baptism for the last few weeks because she's so scared of water. I think that for a lot of people here, their baptism is the only time in their entire life when they are completely immersed in water hahaha. But yeah it was very spiritual,
The theme about exact obedience is something I have thought a lot about. There are a lot of Elders who are ok with listening to pop music in the boarding and going to bed late and waking up late and not being too serious with studies. For me it makes it difficult to get to bed on time because everyone's usually milling around until like 11 but I always try to be as obedient as possible. I really like the message though and I definitely agree with you that the misconception that you have to be immediately and perfectly obedient is a big stumbling block.
Definitely me and elder Greengrass are doing a lot of good missionary work.